Tuesday, June 24, 2025

That Tiresome Dying Thing

 I guess when you get really old, you think a lot more about the dying thing.  I think I first became aware of dying when I was about 16. One of the things that happens when you move up into that teenage period is that your parents and grandparents start to become “OLD”. In my case, although my mom was still pretty ok, one of my Grands had to come live with us. Turns out they had run out of money altogether in around 1950. I literally remember when they were down to their last seven dollars. Think of that. No credit cards, no bank account, and in your pocket is your remaining seven dollars.  My mum’s siblings were in a state of battle about who would/could care for the parents, my Gran and granpa. Turns out, we were selected to care for my Scottish Grandma.  She was a sweetie, but an unwell sweetie. Grandma Inglis was maybe 85, and she had heart disorder and a breathing problem.  When she came to live with us, we lived in a small, two-bedroom cottage. Living there were my mum, my bro and me. So, GM initially slept on our screened porch, which was sort of ok, since it was early summer and weather was not an issue.

But about two months after she arrived, she began to have serious breathing problems. She was placed on oxygen. Since my mum and my bro were busy during the day, I was home alone caring for her.  Sometime midday, GM began having serious breathing problems. I went to her and held her. Then I decided to call the doctor. Soon after I hung up, GM began having terminal breathing problems. I sat with her, holding her as she began breathing her last. Then she stopped breathing altogether, as I held her. She had died in my arms. Shortly thereafter, the doctor arrived. He checked her and declared her dead.  So there I was, a young teen holding my dead GM. That was my first experience with the dying thing. Later, I experienced others with my mum, and Carol’s mum both dying in our care, and both in their 80s.

We had no serious connection with organized religion at that stage as we barely attended a small local church. So we had no awareness of what happens when one dies. The fact that nothing happens actually, beyond the cessation of breathing and thereby LIFE did not occur in any complex way. Gram was here, then she was “Gone”. And see we used that term, “Gone”, which signifies a journey of some kind. Folks leave the earth and then travel to Heaven, where they then live in heavenly splendor, looking down upon us poor earthbound creatures.

At that stage, it never occurred to me that, after death, one simply ceases being aware. You are no longer aware, therefore you cease to exist. We are allowed to place you in a box and bury that box several feet underground, which is what we did with Gran. Gran then no longer exists, except as a memory in our little brains.  And then we went about our daily living chores, and Gran became yesterday. I stopped thinking of her, except occasionally.  Yet, even now, some 70 years later, I still think of her as I see a picture of her in our home. But, for that, she is literally “gone”.

Later, much later, I began thinking about Life and its cessation. And I wonder, what exactly is LIFE? And, why do we have LIFE? Just recently, a new life has come into our family with the birth of our newest Great Grandson, Lincoln Steinbacher. He is a sweet little man, and, we hope he has many decades of a fruitful and happy life ahead of him.  And he adds to our assembly of men and women, boys and girls, all of whom comprise our family.  He is . . . they all are LIFE.

But Gran was also LIFE. She breathed, smiled, laughed, chatted with us. And then suddenly, she was no longer among we members of the LIFE thing.  But she, and all who came before and all who continue to occupy LIFE, are members of this curious phenomenon called Intelligent Life forms. And it always draws me back to the Beginning, assuming there was, at some point, a “Beginning”.  See we are always faced with this question—how did creation begin and was there a Life Force at that beginning stage?

I completely fail to understand how a Universe began, with or without a Life Force.  Was there a Creator? How could there not have been one? But, see, it grows even more complex when one thinks about a Creator? Suppose there was a Creator—a God—who was responsible. But who created the Creator? Even if it is all magic, who/what is the magician?

I really have to think more about this creation thing. No explanation springs to mind. Even if the ultimate answer is GOD. My question remains to baffle me—who created GOD? And why? Why would a GOD create this magical thing called The Universe? And why take such a long time.? Why not just snap one’s fingers and suddenly a functional universe appears?  And if a God created this universe thingie, why such a problematic one? Why are Humans not perfect?

OK, maybe another Day. Think On Richard. And Meanwhile, Bye Bye Granny Inglis, and Welcome to our Newest source of wonder, Lincoln Byrd Steinbacher? You are already amazing.

Wednesday, June 11, 2025

That Dying Thing

 How do we know we are dying? Well, I guess the most honest answer is, “well, we don’t know, until we are nearly dead.” It seems that, barring a drastic thing like cancer, or being hit by a car, or a stray bullet, there is no definite signal. But there are lots of little signals. Like what? Oh, we are a little unsteady while walking. Or, when we bend over, we begin to acquire some dizziness. Or we experience some shortness of breath while walking or climbing.  Arguably, the continued introduction and use of various medical pills is also a good sign. See, we are trying artificially to maintain the body’s usual functional capabilities.

But all such signs could introduce themselves when we are 30, or 40. We don’t have to be 80 or 90. Now, I come from a family in which all members ceased existing by the latest 85. And my memories of those folks are always of “old people”. But, since they all died when I was still pretty young, all of my memories are those of 5-20 somethings observing 60 – 80 somethings.

But now, I’m 90 and my dear wife is 89. And we are still cranking ahead, even to working out several times a week.  We even have a weekly “Datenite”, when we go to our local brewpub and have a beer, some dinner, and some pleasant conversation with close friends. So, is that “Old”?  Well, not really, but we are now definitely “Old”.

But are we “Dying”? Well, yeah, of course, but aren’t we all?

But that isn’t what bothers me. No. What bothers me is having an idiot-malenfant as our President, during this maybe final stage of our lives.  See my first political memories are listening to the radio at maybe age 5 or 6, while FDR chatted to us. I actually and vividly remember FDR telling us about December 7th and the Pearly Harbor bombing, that started WW II. Yeah, I sat on the floor in our Second Avenue, Manhattan railroad flat with the radio next to me on our front room floor and listened.

And now I have to pay attention to this fascist clown, who may be the dumbest human on the planet, lie to me about crowds gathering in LA. And that makes me scared   . . . scared that I might die before this idiot leaves our planet.  See, I’ve lived through a lot of Presidents. Think Nixon, and Shrub, and Reagan for heaven’s sake.  Course, we also had Ike, and Kennedy, and Truman, and Johnson. Were the latter all perfect? No, of course not, but they were genuinely trying to keep America safe and a decent place to live. Trump, on the other hand, doesn’t care. He wants only to be treated like a king. But he keeps acting like a nasty, spoiled little five-year-old, who is always whining and crying.

And so, I live, day by day, watching this idiot, and hoping maybe he will fall down the stairs and not recover. Horrible? Yep, I know. I’m awful, but I keep thinking about our Great Grandchildren and what kind of world they might have if this idiot doesn’t soon leave.  See, he is old enough to have a sudden heart attack. I mean, he is fat, as well as stupid. So, maybe we will luck out and he will experience a stroke, or some such. But can’t it happen while I am still breathing air on this planet of ours??? Yeah, so he goes out, and then I can relax. Oh, but one other thing??? Maybe a stroke or heart attack could mangle Vance as well. That would be nice.

So, breathe on folks. We all need to survive this idiot-malenfant. Smile, have a nice glass of wine. Breathe slowly and deeply, and smile . . . oh and sip on that wine. Yeah chill.

Sunday, May 25, 2025

Today in Outrage

 I guess I’m getting really old, cuz everything in our falling apart world seems to be consistent daily. What’s that you say? Well, let’s see, Donald Trump does or says something completely outrageous—you know like he’s going to cut Medicaid, or eliminate Food assistance to poor families, and then the fun begins. The republicans cheer him on, and the Dems begin sending me messages, showing how outrageous they are. “Awful stuff the Prez is doing. Oh, and by the way, would you send me five dollars for our next election?” Yeah, I get maybe 125 of those each day.

Yeah, the outrage is stunning . . . but send me five dollars. Honestly, Trump actually is an outrage, perhaps daily if not hourly. Yet nothing happens. He dictates to Harvard that they can no longer accept foreign students??? The President of the United States imagines that he can tell Harvard who they can admit to their colleges??? Seriously??? And then he goes off on some bizarre statement about something that barely seems in English.  And we go have another cup of coffee.

America, that country I used to adore is being ruled by a malevolent idiot, who can barely speak English because he never educated himself, and America seems to just sigh and go about its business. Maybe this is the beginning of the end for our wonderful country.

But how did it happen so quickly? There is something very different and sinister about our country under Trump. For example, his “Big Beautiful Bill” that, among other things, guts Medicaid and food assistance would never even have been considered 25 years ago. Even Reagan, for Heaven’s sake, would never have drafted such a piece of evil crap. I mean, I always had a low opinion of St. Ronald of Reagan—I did work under his regime for six years. But I never thought he was completely evil, whereas Trump seems to have no positive elements at all. Everything about him seems either terminally stupid, or evil. And yet, Americans voted for him. They elected him and now cheer him on.   What the Hell people?

And his latest Bill seems intent, in part, on emasculating the Supreme Court, so that they won’t be able to stop him either.

And so, now, the Senate will have to weigh in and decide on whether to pass this outrage masquerading as a piece of American legislation.

So, America, Are We Done As a Civilized Nation???

Senators, it is entirely up to you. Should you decide to pass his bill, then YOU are Pronouncing the End Of America. One might even say that You Are Killing America. Yes, it is that serious. So Think Very Carefully before you VOTE!

Wednesday, May 7, 2025

Anarchy

 It’s really amazing how Donald Trump simply ignores all safeguards, like that Constitutional thingy, or ordinary laws. He just does what he likes, often via that thing called an Executive Order. What’s an Executive Order you ask? Well, it’s simply an expression of desire, or something that The Donald wishes to see happen.  You know, like if he was sitting in the Oval Office and he turned to his idiot secretary and said, “Get me a pizza”.  See, he expects that thing called a pizza to suddenly appear on his desk within, say 15-20 minutes.

So, when he says, via his Executive Order, “Go to that dude’s house, drag him out of it, and send him off to El Salvador, he assumes that dude will soon be headed to some prison in El Salvador.

And what happens if a court issues a statement that says, “No, you cannot legally send that man to a prison in El Salvador, so stop that plane and return him to the US.”? And then nothing happens, cuz The Donald really pays no attention to Courts or the Law generally. He simply says, “Hmmm, No I can’t do that. Sorry”.

And then, there is no general uproar, from any Congressfolks of either political party. Nope, everyone just says, “Huh, well we’re still on for dinner right?” Or, “Well, I gotta go pickup my kid from school. Bye”.

See, and that’s how our world now works. Trump does or says something, something happens and then everyone goes back to whatever they were doing.  Whether he is doing stuff legally, or not in accordance with the law, seems no longer to matter. He does whatever he wants, and everyone else just goes about their business.

So, now I have begun to wonder. Are we living in a new kind of country, where you can simply do whatever you want, and there is no consequence? Suppose, the working gentry in whatever department Trump was ordering about decided they didn’t feel like doing whatever Trump wanted, and simply ignored him? Like, Trump issues an Executive Order, that says, “Abolish that Office in NIH that does Cancer research on children”. And then nobody does anything. That office keeps on truck’n, folks still get paid, and everyone just goes back to work. And Trump yells again, and nothing happens.

Or Trump says, “Eliminate all contracts and grants with Harvard University.” And again, nothing happens. The contracts remain in place and Harvard still gets paid.  And Trump yells a lot, but nothing happens.

Wouldn’t that be interesting? In other words, the working stiffs throughout government, decide that Trump doesn’t actually exist, so nothing he says or writes  about matters, and they are free to ignore everything coming from Trump.  Now that would be funny. Scary for us, maybe, cuz it would mean we have no functioning government, or rather, we have a government on autopilot, no longer susceptible to our pseudo-president.  Yeah, I understand that would be a terrifying situation, but would it be any more terrifying than what we have now??? Hmmm, I no longer know.

We have now a system of government, in which no one is really in charge of anything any longer. Trump is a kind of Absolute King. He says something, and everyone is expected to obey. We have courts but they seem no longer to operate in any sensible way. And Trump does or says something terminally stupid, and no one does anything.

So maybe everyone should simply ignore him when he says anything obviously stupid, or even illegal. And how would we know it is stupid or illegal? Well, think about it, you Government workers, something Trump can’t or won’t do, cuz his brain seems not to function.

So, we then have a Government in which thousands of people can decide to do or not to do whatever they decide is a good thing for America.  Hahahahahahaha.

Monday, April 14, 2025

Life With The Drumpf

 And Life goes on. The fact that I am 90 is of little interest to anyone, barely so to me. Occasionally, I see someone who is, say, 75, who looks older than me, and I scratch my head, and say, Whoa, really??? 75??? Wow!

And then I move on. And that’s how it is with Donald Trump. He rants to a mike about water coming or not coming out of a shower, And I think, This is our President??? Seriously? Then we have all this shit about the Tariffs. They are on, they are off, well maybe they are on, except for Apple I-Phones??  Oh, probably Trump has an Apple I-Phone. Sort of like the stocks that waned and then surged. Remind me, how much money he made??

And then his BFF bombs some place in Ukraine that is exclusively private, with no war effort inside, and dozens or hundreds die. And The Drumpf says nothing and does nothing. He has only been in office a few months, but he has already turned the Presidency into a bad joke. And do I hear anything from the Democrats??? No, they are still debating why Kamala lost, I guess. And the GOP?? Well, the GOP now stands for the General Opposition Portal. Whenever anyone says or writes anything negative about Trump, the GOP mouths something terminally stupid in response.

And we are facing the better part of four more years of this insanity. And see, I was young but much alive when FDR told us on the radio about Pearl Harbor. So, I have lived through Nixon, and Shrub and even Ronald Reagan. And as difficult as those times were for all of us, Democrats and republicans alike, there is simply no comparison with today and the Drumpf. Knowing that our President is a crook, and a con man, and way more incompetent than any politician we have ever witnessed, makes facing each day very difficult.  Plus, we have a Hitleresque figure sitting over the Kremlin, currently raining death and destruction all over the Ukraine, with our President apparently giving him the two thumbs up, making life even more difficult.

But I don’t know what is more difficult—watching Vlad the Impaler rain Hell on the Ukraine daily, or watching our Congress, Dems and Reps alike, sit on their asses and do nothing to arrest our President, or at least try to stop him from worsening our world even more.  It is really like all of Congress is simply fast asleep. And yet, we pay each of them something in the range of $174,000 each year.  Think of that! How much do you get paid—no, not you Elon, you ordinary working stiffs out there. And yet, despite that $174,000, they feel it is ok to do nothing to stop the utter destruction of the entire American government??? And I mean NOTHING.

How does that make you feel folks?

Impeachment anyone???

Oh and don’t forget, Vance is worse, so we must rid the world of him too.

Please folks.

Do something to rid America of this diseased entity sitting in the White House. He is a menace to our entire world.

Tuesday, March 18, 2025

Old and Getting Older

 I’m every bit 90 now, and feeling like it. How does it feel?  Well, I awaken each morning , knowing I really have nothing to do. In olden tymes, I would awaken, get up, shower, dress, knowing I had a purpose—going to my job to do something useful for someone, for a fee-my salary.  Sometimes, I would write down what I was doing and have it published in some form.

But in any case, I knew each day, I had to accomplish something for someone else.

But now, there is no “someone else”. I am done, with doing theoretically useful tasks for other people.  Now, I am stuck with observing the world. And what do I see daily? I see a madman whom the American people elected to the Presidency doing stupid things daily designed to hurt other people . . . people he does not even know.  And why is he hurting other people he does not even know? Well, because he can, as a way of demonstrating that he is in charge of America, and he can do anything he wants, and no one is allowed to interfere. NO ONE!

And so he is deporting people he thinks should be deported? Why? Because he can. It is his way of demonstrating that he is in charge of America. He is acting like King Donald I.  Now I have two theories about all this. Theory One is that Donald now actually believes he can do anything he wants. He thinks MAGA faithful elected him to be King Donald. And he is pissed at America, and he intends showing America that he is pissed. Why is he angry? Well, because other folks said he is an idiot-malenfant (well he is, but he does not like hearing that).  He thinks he is perfect in all respects, so to hear other people say he is an idiot, really pisses him off. And now his MAGA’s gave him unlimited power to take revenge on that outside world. So he is doing just that.

Now the second theory is that The Donald is beholden to Vladimir Putin, maybe even on his payroll, Yeah, he is an employee of the Czar of Russia.  He looks at Czar Putin and he sees a dude who apparently does whatever he wants in Russia, and no one holds him to account.  And at some stage, Putin bought him . . . maybe it was that period when he was 41, bankrupt, visited Russia and then came away with banks loaning him money to buy a grand hotel, Remember that? And maybe he has been on a Russian payroll ever since.  Now what would Putin love to see happen In America? Well, it would be great were America to simply die. Yeah, American institutions would disappear and the entire American government would just break apart and go away. And America would then no longer be a feared adversary. No, it would just be a pathetic little country with essentially no government, ruled by a pathetic old man called The Donald, a man who would do whatever Vlad Putin told him to do. Yeah, that’s my second theory.  And  maybe they are both operating at the same time.

Now what I really do not understand is why the existing American government is allowing Trump to do what I described—just destroy the entire American government.  Yeah, that makes no sense to me.  But it is what I keep watching, and I am beginning to think, maybe it’s all cuz I’m 90 and I just do not understand anything any longer. Maybe I am just dreaming about the destruction of the American government, and it isn’t really happening before my eyes.  Do you think? So, this is all just a horrible dream, and maybe I will awaken sometime in the next century and all will be well with America. OK, so dream on Richard. Awaken next century and all will be well. Won’t that be nice?

Tuesday, March 11, 2025

Russian Agent Trump

 I am having increasing difficulties daily reading anything said or done by Donald Trump and Elon Musk. In only a little over a month since being elevated to the Presidency, Donald Trump has managed to alienate virtually all of our friends and allies all over the globe.  And he has been assisted, inexplicably by Elon Musk, the richest human on the planet.  Together, they seem to be enjoying life while destroying our Nation’s Government, firing workers at random and either doing away with Executive Branch agencies, or threatening to do so.  All this without any action by our Congress either in support of or in opposition to his actions.  Musk isn’t even a legitimate member of our government, but he seems to relish in the job of total destruction.

I keep waiting for the Great debate –Trump Vs. Congress. But NO. No debate, not even a conversation.  How could this be even possible?

Then recently, I read about how, when Trump was only 41, and bankrupt, he was invited to visit Moscow. He went and then, shortly thereafter, upon returning from Moscow, the bankrupt Trump suddenly received loans from 16 banks and, without negotiation, purchased The Plaza Hotel for $407.5 million — a record price for a hotel. So, presumptively, Donald Trump was then on a Russian payroll. Now, how/why would they have wanted him on their payroll? This was in the 1980s, way before he became US President. Did they know or predict he would become President?  Ot. More likely, they simply added him into their list of rich people whom they had bought for future corrupt purposes.

Now, we can argue about this forever, without coming to any conclusion. However, virtually all of Trump’s actions since becoming President have been at least supportive of Putin’s Russia.  Now, what troubles me the most is that, prior to our election, none of this news became public. Why was there not even a mention of this possibility that Trump was in fact a Russian agent? Now, to be fair, we do not know that Trump is on Putin’s payroll today, but his actions, especially his recent dealings with Ukraine and Zelensky, seem strongly suggestive of that possibility.

I am not sure how to explain Elon Musk and his total support of Trump. Why would the wealthiest human on the planet suddenly come into play as yet another Russian agent by supporting Trump? Hard to understand.  But I remain even more uncertain about the motives of the Republican party, and, even of the Democratic Party. What we have is something close to total silence on this entire issue – Is Donald Trump, the President of America, an agent of Vladimir Putin? 

Can we at least debate that issue folks???